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In my teens, I had high standards but I got " Humbled" and guilty tripped into lowering them. I thought maybe I shouldn't have expectations of people and make it easy for them since everyone deserves fair chance to find a partner.
Well some months later I was having a stroll with my mother, and a scrote talking in broken English was into me. He lied about his age by moving his finger on the birth date because he claims he's 27 but his hairline says different. Then he followed me around like I got honey smeared on me. And my mother who was supposed to be protecting me just allowed him while I gave her side glances to please step in.
I was a young girl and not mouthy at all, We went to a restaurant and he followed us in, pickme mother bought food for us both and wanted too, and he was "Nice" calling my mother Mommy and that she should eat everything on her plate.
Then it was time to go home and only then my mother put her foot down and shoved him out of our car door when he tried to come home with us. The whole time he wanted to hold my hand and I felt so squirmish but I didn't had the voice to tell him to piss off.
He was parking his bike weeks later and saw me step out of the library, he said hello coming closer saying he was a member too and I snapped at him to leave me be, and I would only go there to study If I was with male and female students, never alone.
Then I had my first job that could coexist with school, Another scrote fancied me and he kept his heavy clammy hand on my shoulder the whole time like he tried to signal to other male employees that I'm his and when he didn't have to work I felt blessed being able to talk to the women and other guys without being touched constantly, they were more fun to spend time with than him.
I left without a word to the manager because I couldn't handle having my personal space invaded and he even offered to come to pick me up after work, unfunny jokes, wanting me to like him so bad but when I mentioned a standard it seemed like his brain needed a reboot and said " Well Im just going to be myself"
Now that I left my teens and in my 20's I dealt with some scrotes like men 15 years my senior who wanted to date me, and scrotes who still lived with their mothers too who try to challenge my rule that I will never share a bed with you if we don't share the same roof.
From that moment on I realized that lowering my standards and being nice to males to avoid hurting their fee fees was a huge mistake.
Men in general only take, they take away your peace, your space, and your happiness because their needs and wants seem to trump yours.
If I don't see a man as a potential partner I will not give him access to anything. Not even the benefit of the doubt.
Recently I was by myself and a scrote approached me and I said im not interested but he claims he only wants to send me good morning messages on whatsapp then I saw a predatory glint shimmer in his eyes and im like no.. you want more than that. I made an excuse that I got a new phone number and I haven't remembered it yet, With that I left attending my business.
I can't wait to really " Hit the wall" and just be free to take any new activity that catches my interest. I can write a trilogy about how scrotes ruined simple enjoyments outdoors for just being nice to them.
I noticed men were scum pretty early on. Boys on the playground snapping our bras, etc etc. My brothers were treated like kings in our family while the girls were treated like we were useless and stupid harlots, no matter what we did.
I remember once a man approached my mom and I and told her he wanted to paint me, he was an artist, blah blah. She said no and was super protective of that and I learned a lot from her doing that. I always wondered how genuine that guy was only because women painters would do the same and my mom would allow it. But I learned no matter that guy's true intentions, men can't be trusted.
Men in HS acted like total dogs, but I ended up in a very long relationship from like 15 to 28. I was groomed by a really rich dude who wanted a little trophy, essentially. Went to college and men in college were worse than men in HS... I watched my friends go through hell with guys.
Broke off an engagement bc Rico Suave with all the $$$ was meeting up w/our friend's heroin addict little sister behind my back for at least 5 years. I wish I were making that up. 😂
Became single in my late 20s and every tom dick and Harry that ever knew me swarmed me telling me they loved me, always had, blah blah. Many of my long term male "friends" got pushy for sex, relationships, anything. If I was stupid enough to bite, they treated me like shit and it ended quickly. I dated a friend I knew from high school and he abused me.
I decided to stay alone for a while after that last guy. It took a super scary man to make me level up and focus on me, but oddly enough I'm grateful it happened or I don't know that I ever would have woken up like I needed to. Men everywhere still would not leave me alone. This is not a flex... I was generally enraged that they always tried to talk to me, bother me, give unwarranted advice... I mean strangers. I was legitimately angry that they always tried to push themselves on me in some way (Why can't they just leave us alone?) I was dodging them everywhere, I wanted to be as alone as possible, but ya know... scrotes gotta scrote. Decided to get a degree and not date dor 2 more years. So, 4 years single now and geeeze, my life has totally flourished and I'm sooo thankful that I woke the f up!
I don't know that "hitting the wall" is coming .. I don't even think we hit a wall and I honestly think men will continue to get worse and more audacious as we age. Old scrotes don't care about shit and are some of the worst!