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You ever get the absolute realization that some men don't appreciate what you give them?
It's like people who win the lottery. They get really happy and think that's the level of happiness they'll always be at. But the happiness actually just goes back to their baseline of happiness. They don't appreciate the good event that happened.
They just take you for granted, that you'll always be there and you'll always give them what they've always been getting from you. They won the lottery when you came along and they don't even thank their good graces for you.
You gave them presents that they've never reciprocated. You gave them food, you gave them liquor.
They've had sex with you to their satisfaction and didn't give you an orgasm.
They've played online games while you were there, and you were just waiting for them to notice you again. For hours.
And you can wish this never happened. You can wish you had been smart enough in the first place to avoid this man.
But.
The feeling, the absolute nausea you get when you remember what a bootlicking, simpering doormat you were is a gift. If you are strong and smart enough to listen to yourself about this feeling, it will never let you forget you were this taken advantage of. Because without this feeling, you'd do it again and think it was worth it because of love. All change is uncomfortable.
You can change. I believe in you.
You’re timing 👌
Amen
I wish women in general all had access to FDS and all of its sister subs prior to dating to begin with. So many of us learn the hard way, and then we’re called and viewed as being “jaded.” I’m sharing FDS with all the women I know, in some cases my sharing is subtle and in other cases it’s more aggressive. I genuinely wish I had this space and the knowledge from other women prior in life. I understand your post; and it sounds like lessons learned in hindsight. Sigh….men.