I'm writing about an experience I had with a man I don't know, about one week ago. My two girlfriends and I went to a river boating party. We were having a great time but when we got back from our boating trip we all had had to much to drink Well I got out of the boat and headed to the house to smoke some pot with one of the guys. We sat down on the couch to smoke and he pulled his dick out , grabbed me by the back of the neck and kept pushing me down trying to make me kiss it while yelling "do it do it do it". I'm not a fighter so I kissed it for a second then thought "I'm not doing this". So I raised up and told him so. Then I got up and left. What makes me feel so bad is having kissed it at all. I was really upset with myself fro having kissed it. I didn't and haven't told my girlfriends because I didn't want to ruin their experience of the evening because we all were having such a good time. With no one to tell I thought I would share on here because I feel like I should have fought back but didn't. I never should have kissed it at all and now I feel bad about myself. I'm embarrassed.
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It’s not your fault. It’s “grey” rape, sex acts induced through coercion. Men do it because it works. I understand your rage. I’ve been there. Thank yourself for having the fortitude to get up and leave. He’s a rapist and an abuser, you have nothing to be ashamed of.
He pushed you to do it by force, don’t blame yourself about how you managed the situation, it was probably the best you could have done in the moment. Please consider not smoking pot and not associating with people who do, invest in other friendships and acquaintances who will add value to your life. Take good care of yourself.
I'm so sorry, please believe none of this is your fault and there is nothing you've said or done that warranted that disgusting behaviour. Please stay safe and perhaps seek a trusted friend or therapist who could help you work through this ordeal if needed. Hugs 🫂
Having had your head violently forced down by a man is a terrifying experience. This is not your fault. I'm so sorry this happened to you, its disgusting behaviour on his part. This is not your fault. No one needs to remove their penis from their pants to smoke weed. It will be hard but I would firstly, confine in your friends. You need support right now. Plus you need them to be aware what a disgusting messed up guy he is. Secondly, report this guy. Police may or may not take your seriously but fuck them, get his name in the system. He is going to continue to push boundaries. I fear for what he's already done or will do. Absolutely horrific.
I am so sorry to hear that you experienced this awful thing. :( That guy is fucking disgusting. I agree that you should report him so that his name will be in a law enforcement database. You could be helping other women who may report him later. I wrote out another comment about quitting pot -- I have some things to share with you if you want, but I didn't want to obtrusively post the whole thing in this thread because you didn't ask for advice for it in the OP or in your comment. Let me know if you want to read it, and in any case, best of luck to you with quitting pot and healing from this terrible abuse.
Thank you. That is good solid advise and I certainly will consider it.
Jesus don’t feel bad you did what you had to do to get out of there safely. Please definitely tell your friends, though it could save someone else from ending up in this situation with this scrote.