You are a woman with a man inside watching a woman. You are your own voyeur...or are you?

So I was thinking about this quote recently because ngl, this problem consumes my mind. I am terrified of dying and having missed out on a life from my own perspective since I was 12. So I was thinking, how do I get rid of this dirty man that keeps living in my head?

I replaced him with a woman. I felt its too difficult to tackle the feeling of being watched so I took a smaller step. Who is watching? I instantly felt more relaxed and myself after thinking about all the ways a woman would see me. No need to perform beauty, all I need to do is be joyful. Tbh, I feel like it even made me more present and mindful than I would be without her.