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I can never relax in relationships. I always had to play the "hard to get" role in order to get the attention I wanted. But it was never genuine attention. It was guys trying to soothe their own egos using me. Whether it was trying to get my attention when I was ignoring them.
Or then using me from the start for compliments and companionship. Anytime I like a guy back, he immediately loses interest and im so sick of this happening. There hasn't been a single relationship where this hasn't happened.
And me being pickme fell for their stupid sob stories or I would boost their egos when they would pathetically tell me stories of how awesome they are. Im just tired. I'm turning 22 tomorrow and I'm already jaded with dating.
Men are slowly killing my attraction to them. I noticed my libido is practically gone and I while I yearn for companionship, my emotions have blunted as well. I've become cold and apathetic towards everyone and it makes me sad..
Can't blame ya. 99.999% of everything a man does is all about him, not you or anyone else. That's because they don't understand that other people are people; they just see humanoid flesh puppets to serve their own needs. He is the center of the universe. He filters everything and everyone in existence through the lense of his own ego. If a tree fell in the forest, he'll tell you that no it would not make a sound unless he himself were there to hear it. We are all blowup dolls to most men. Hug.
Period. Notice how happy elderly women so commonly say they would never, ever, ever remarry? Yeah. Men only want conquest and ego boost until proven otherwise.
You need to have solid female friends. That way you're used to a healthy back and forth between people who respect each other. That's your baseline. If a man can't keep up with that, then being alone is healthier, unless he's really rich and won't make you sign a prenup.