I am kind of worried about making this kind of thread. On Reddit and Quora, a woman who finds it difficult to be friends with another woman who is way more attractive than them, can be demonized for "insecurity."
There is someone in real life who I otherwise might have been able to be good friends with. She has a good personality, she had been very nice to me, but her personality is a little too good - I know that if I had a man, and she was sitting with me, the man would probably talk to her more than me. It saddens me deeply to admit this, since she has a man herself. I don't have any bitterness toward her per se, but I'm bitter at this scrotatious world who would make me feel invisible in her presence.
I struggle with this. As a result, I think I did a bad job of keeping in touch with her. I wish I could have focused on my own self and being my own person more, but I couldn't. On her FB, she used to Like a website devoted to women posing nude online. I don't see it on her list of Likes anymore. Either she has stopped doing it, or doesn't want to public to know that she still is.
Before anyone demonizes me for "insecurity," well such people probably do not understand how debilitating it is. I kind of know how it kind of feels to be on the other side - married women giving me the stink eye because they think I'm a so-called threat, and it's extremely offensive to be discriminated at like that, but I don't know what to do.
This is actually part of social conditioning ingrained upon us by patriarchy. Both not being comfortable with befriending women we perceive as more beautiful than us, and social scorn at this phenomenon. Just like we are criticised for other things we are conditioned and expected to do in patriarchy. You are correct to assume that it's not her actually making you hate to be around her, it's moids and their depravity. I'm not going to tell you it's OK and good to not want to be around a woman because she so happened to be more attractive to men, because it's literally our internalised misogyny speaking. But I'm not going to condemn you either. We all have our demons.