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Truly? I'm not even sure I can say. I thought it was marriage, but I have no "object" in mind anymore.
Marriage seems so corrupted to me when I see how little the idea of sacrifice for the greater good of the couple is understood and practiced. Then I watch things like BETRAYAL: THE PERFECT HUSBAND (Hulu), and dear God. It's slightly sensational, pretty much as expected, but watching "family" "alpha" men use marriage and monogamy as a cover-up for secretly acting out their most violent and depraved urges disgusts me to the core.
I have examples of amazing married men in my life, but they're exceptional. Even though I've opened myself back up to dating after a total whiteout, the commitment to myself, my dreams, and my spiritual evolution is stronger than ever.
It's hard to date when you've found the one you've been looking for! 🙋🏻♀️
My ex-boyfriend was romantic and when I ended the relationship I needed to have a few months to mourn but then decided to have the most wonderful summer. I came across the term “main character syndrome” and realised I have been living my life as too much the opposite of that. So I’m having some fun with it and wearing a gorgeous dress to a local hotel and drinking coffee in the lounge to organise my diary and creating a playlist for my epic single girl life. It’s totally silly and I’m having a great time.
I’m looking for people and experiences that support and enrich my life. While I’m the star, I’m also the casting director and anyone joining my movie needs to bring an exciting new scene that fits the aesthetic of playful glamour.
I have similar thoughts.
I would love to be married. I would love to become a wife to an hvm.
But interestingly, I'm not looking to get married. I think of it as taking baby steps and looking towards getting into a relationship that can be described as deep, meaningful, beautiful and full of respect.
Till then, I'm not looking for marriage even though I would love to be married one day.
I think about this quite a bit (not a ton). I got married and divorced young and I’m getting to the point where I may be open to dating soon. The idea of getting married again is not appealing to me at all.