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Trigger warning. This post is dark.
This happened before I realized how depraved most men are. A man twice my age basically loved bombed me for 2 months, gave me sob stories, triangulated me (I didn’t know what sob stories or triangulation were at the time).
Sex started to feel uncomfortable. I think it’s because he did something to the condoms, since he persistently pushed for not using a condom. After letting him have sex with me without a condom (because I thought it would get rid of the irritation)(and he planned dates consistently so I thought he was sincere), I was horrified to learn that he was a deadbeat dad, and her underage daughter was severely abused by her baby daddy ( she was probably seeking out similar patterns), his ex wife committed suicide and blamed him on the suicide note ( He spoke poorly of her infront of me, did not show any sadness, and moved another woman into his apartment the next day), his previous partner’s career went downhill and she became unemployed( probably due to his abuse). I blocked and deleted him immediately after that, which was 6 months ago, but I'm still disgusted with the fact that I slept with a predator, abuser, and a killer. He ruined many women’s lives.
I didn't expect that this would leave me so traumatized. Had I known men are this depraved, I would have been very hesitant about letting any man near my body.
Have you experienced something similar before? If so, how did you heal afterward?
Not to the degree you’re describing, but yes. Cleanse your body, home, and soul in ways that feel right to you. Grieve. Journal. Reflect. Learn from your mistakes. Give yourself kindness and forgiveness. Level up. And honor and protect yourself better next time 🖤
I'm sorry this happened to you. The last man I slept with (3 years ago) is probably the last.
This clown deceived you but you trusted your gut which is the first step to healing. Start a new path for yourself. Seek therapy, indulge in self care, surround yourself with loved ones/nature/animals, educate yourself on narcissism/abuse/red pill tactics and follow the handbook.
I'm sorry this happened to you. When I ended my last relationship (NVM sex addict), I used sage to cleanse my house, clothing and cars. It may help you as well.
Here's to your healing 💔
I have but it was not as depraved as that!! He confessed it as he was lying next to me. I realised immediately after [sex] that he was PoS, but he was still in my bed. I suddenly felt so uncomfortable and disgusted. Don't blame yourself for what you did when you were younger, how were you supposed to see THAT coming? We arent depraved and sick, theres no rational reason for scrotes to be like that, so its impossible to see it coming or realise some men are that callous and evil. I would not say I have healed so i cannot give the best advice but try to forgive yourself and not hold yourself accountable. All you were doing is seeing a man you liked. Thats it. It's hard to tell when a man is genuinely hv or is love bombing when taking you on dates and doing everything right. Your intentions were pure and very innocent. Unfortantely that attracts men who are scumbags and abusers are very good at lying.
Holy shit this is so scary. At least you got out quickly but this is sociopath-tier. Probably a future criminal, if he isn't one already.