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I'm so glad that it's finally Friday, not because of any specific plans, but because I'm starting to feel more like my true self once again.
Recently, I confronted an ongoing issue that had been weighing me down. For the longest time, I kept doubting myself, thinking that maybe I was overreacting or that the problem was with me (thanks to that lifelong inner critic we all have; breaking old habits is so difficult!). This self-doubt started to impact my relationships with other friends, and it was becoming a real issue. I just wanted to withdraw more. But then, my dear friend said something so simple, yet so profound "You're allowed to feel what you feel. That you feel it is both enough and revealing."
Validating your own feelings is difficult, especially for some of us. Most of the time, I manage it well, but I let this situation linger far longer than it deserved. I'm super happy to finally put it behind me!
How about all of you? How are you feeling at the end of this week—light or heavy? Share one of your recent (or soon-to-be) wins with me! 😊
I finished reading "Anna Karenina", which took me 2 whole months to get through
My boss and higher up boss than her are both singing praises about me and I got a small, but appreciated raise!
I've gotten my feelings for my crush under more control. We happened to bump into each other briefly and he turned his back and pretended to not see me! I said hello because we sometimes have to talk for work and he said hey and then went back to ignoring me! Later an actual problem came up (which I should have spoken to him about) but I found one of his male coworkers and talked to them about it instead. I'm particularly proud of myself for that. Today I heard him around and easily could have come out my office (I have a million things to do) and didn't. And my coworker brought pizza and had leftovers, and suggested heading over to his workplace and giving the team there the rest - but I instead told her no. I'm especially proud of myself because if I was a pickme I would have for sure looked for these opportunities and jumped. New me wants to keep my dignity more than anything.
I've been sleeping much better this week :) Hope it continues. Sleep is Queen.
I'm feeling good. There is good stuff going on in my career. I have been working harder, and it's paying off. I have gotten a bit more on top of my finances. People who owe me money have paid me back. Extra work is bringing in extra income.
My health is good.
My house is good -- quiet, solitary, and peaceful. I'm starting to think ahead to Fall holidays and decorating. Friendships and family relationships are going well.
I've been making sure to have more alone-time to think my thoughts without discussing them with anyone. I'm delving more into my spiritual side and taking time to investigate tht part of my life.
I have been working on learning guitar, at first it was just a couple of months of inconsistent practice and feelign impossible. I doubled down and bought some in-person lessons and have been utilizing more resources like videos and courses, and have been taking a more disciplined approach for maybe 4 months now, and did feel a huge leap these last couple weeks in being able to play things. Even able to do a bit of improvisation on it! My major accomplishment lately is this.
Also went through some subscription-based things I have recurring payments on and got around to cancelling some. Such as my Hulu subscription and a couple apps I don't use often. Ended my gym membership and got a new, closer, cheaper more convenient gym. So a bit of ongoing financial burden has been eased.
I've had a stressful week contemplating quitting my job because it's just not fulfilling to me and is causing me way too much burnout (but I can't seem to find anywhere with better pay). For months I've been expressing my concerns to management that my skills aren't being utilized, but they have fallen on deaf ears. But, at a company event yesterday, I finally got the chance to participate in doing something new that is more aligned to want I want to do with my life, after HR recommended me as a candidate to one of the higher up corporate execs. It was nice to feel recognized, even if it is not a permanent role change for me. I'm hoping the exec is able to remember me for the next time my skills are needed, and maybe this experience will pave the way for future opportunities. I am also grateful that HR remembered my concern and tried to help me out by putting in a good word for me.
I'm feeling good, I went drinking with a sister over the weekend and it messed my brain up earlier in the week but after taking some DHA and EPA and weight lifting I've been more positive and realizing that my life is pretty good and everything is under control.
Partly because I get to work from home now and catch extra sleep/ exercise time/ save money on gas.
I've also calculated that it'll only take a few months to pay off my debt and now I have a concrete plan besides automatic transfers.
Man alcohol is the worst but luckily I've studied a bit of food stuff and got my brain under control. Happy as a clam.
I am a small business owner and I just got my first client from a different country (until now all my clients were from my own country). It feels like a step in a new market and I am excited!