My life is a constant pendulum....

"Normal" is whatever you surround yourself with. Most of your friends will be divorced before they're 35, so don't worry about them all getting married now. You're just avoiding your first divorce. I'd focus on finding single friends and investing in yourself.

I would say first of all, go through a social media detox. Comparing yourself to others and their timelines does not usually go well. Second of all, you have standards and you're not just going for any man, which is a commendable mindset to have! I think it is alright for your friends to ask you about a man (it _is_ a wedding after all) but you can also tell them that you'll know your kind of man when you see it and leave it at that (1 sentence answers with silence are amazing, they will stop asking once they sense the awkwardness LOL) As for the ex dating someone else, they're just trying to fill a void, and it does not matter how they are doing anymore. Block and delete, you both don't know each other anymore.

The best thing that's helped me right now was this quote I found "Be so focused on watering your own grass that you don't have time to see someone else's grass." At the end of the day, people just want tea. You have all liberty to do whatever you want with your life. You got this! <3

You're not losing your mind, much of society tries like hell to make us feel inadequate without a man, to make decisions that are against our best judgment.

If we're not careful, it's how they get us... to settle down with scrotes who don't make our lives better. To get used, or worse, abused.

Now I'm older than you, and the pendulum has fully stopped on "I'll do whatever I want" - I'm allowed to be open to having someone enter my life, without feeling like I'm required to have a man in my life.

I love seeing weddings on my timeline, but if anything I get FOMO because I’d love to be invited! Somehow the people I’m closest to are mostly commitment phobic or already married. I think you’re going through a tough time and others are rubbing salt into the wound. It’s still fresh and seriously, there’s so much social judgement when no one cares. We’re all temporarily curious as asking about your marital status as a way to keep conversation going, but when I see someone getting judgy about it, you’ve got a LV person. You’re bothered about feeling like your ex moving on first. He hasn’t. He’s going to treat the next woman the same. I wouldn’t think about his life because it won’t have you in it.

Your feelings are totally normal! I've felt the same way and this is what has helped me:

Realizing that not everyone will like me. That woman at work doesn't like me? Ok. That dude I went to dinner with doesn't like me? Ok. Not everyone has to be OK with being with me! I am my own person and I don't like everyone, so why do I think I should somehow have a certain social interaction (a relationship)? Are we ENTITLED to relationships? Or are relationships things that happen through serendipity and mutual effort?

Realizing that a lot of things are out of my control. I believe in a higher power. So when something doesn't happen, or go my way, it's easy for me to say: that's ok. Maybe there's something better down the line.

Realizing that I am a unique person, and so the man for me will be unique. He will be literally 1 out of 1 million losers. That is someone worth waiting for and not getting bogged down with some loser just because I'm feeling lonely.

I can relate. It's not like I want to be married now, but I'm worried I won't be able to find someone in the future. However, one thing I do know is that marrying out of fear would not be in my best interest. The answer to this problem is something I haven't found yet, but I'm sure I will work through it in therapy (I have an awesome therapist!)