Sunday Reflections (Sept 18th)- Accountability Thread

Finally made friends with a woman who is a local leader in my career field. Met her for the first time in person at a big wig’s funeral. We text each other and get together now. Showing up in person for events certainly has its rewards, even though it’s out of my comfort zone.

This week was very trying. I had to sit in a meeting while my idiot boss (female btw) try to take credit for a system I built and trained my coworkers on last year. She also assigned herself to a project that I had been leading for months and that is now wrapping up, probably so she can take credit for the solving the problem that kickstarted the project in the first place. To not get into a bad mental space, I through myself into the following:

1. Studying for my certification exam I'm taking at the end of October

2. Practicing Spanish with duolingo and setting a new daily goal for myself Going running everyday for at least 3 miles

3. Reading frantically. I finished 2 books this week

4. I also re-read my approval for my Winter sabbatical every night to remind me that once I come back, I won't have to deal with this chick again

When I'm down, I get competitive and better. My strategy is not to meet people at a lower frequency and do something to either improve myself (all the above) or calm myself down (embroidery, coloring, golfing). It's been working for me.

Hello Queens! I closed a deal I've been working on for months last Thursday (i'm a realtor) and it's become more and more clear to me why I'm changing careers. After being harassed or screwed over with most of the men I tried to work with, I partnered up with a woman who I became close with over 2021. She revealed her true "aunt lydia" self once we started working together on the same clients. She constantly undermined me infront of the sellers throughout the process and any buyers that came. She never shared any of the problems that were going on and then complained to all of our coworkers that I was ditching her! Once we closed the deal after months of this, she tells me she deserves to keep the whole commission. Thankfully our brokerage will divide it up evenly but the fact that she even thought it was okay to ask me that is my last straw. Real estate in my experience has been really hard to make headways into as a young woman. 1. I feel I've tried every which way to make it work for me, lost all my friends and family over deals and generally feeling tired of depending on peoples' opinions of me for a paycheck

2. I did close the deal so thankfully I dont have to spend too much time with the aunt lydia coworker 3. toxic work environment 4. I have applied and got into a coding bootcamp. It's a 6 month program and it's all online. Hopefully I'll be able to change careers into something where I can at least work from home and minimize the live customer service aspect.

My goal was to go visit a museum and pick up some hobbies I had accidentally abandoned due to the pandemic. I didn't go out. I had some good reasons (like feeling sick because of a vaccination), but mostly they were just excuses. I'm pretty introverted, and I already have friends and a good husband so I don't really feel like I need to keep myself properly socialized, but that's actually pretty stupid 😩 I'll end up losing levels and becoming a social cripple at this rate. I never really enjoyed most social gatherings and had to study and force myself to engage with others.

I think the fact that I'm having a hard time getting up the motivation to go stare at pretty things in silence is a sign that I really need to get the f out of the house. Maybe I'll try a few "training" type trips and spend a few hours sitting in silence at my favorite café. I have what I think is a good idea for a post here so I can use my laptop as a shield. Honestly the pandemic really has brought out some of my worst tendencies and I perversely enjoyed the fact that it was for "the greater good" this time instead of what I prefer to do lol.