Sunday Reflections (Oct 16th)- Accountability Thread

I really noticed how important journaling is for me and I want to make this goal a consistent goal for at least three months. It helps me emotionally ofc, but it also helps me organize my thoughts, and if I make it a habit then I won't forget like I used to 😅

It was another stressful week. I definitely was not perfect (who is?), but I did my best. I've started to take the approach of focusing not on how I mess up (it's inevitable) but how quickly I recover. Did I have a few days where I maybe turned to food too much for comfort? Yes. Did I let it go on and get really bad? No. I'm back to eating healthier. I've got next week's meals planned. I give myself compassion and let myself be flawed. Perfectionism is destructive.

I meditated almost every day. I did affirmations regularly throughout the week. I started taking some supplements to deal with issues I've been having. I feel proactive. I'm drinking more water and tea each day. I'm working on limiting social media. When I do use it, I've made it so much more positive. Tip: like only cute animal videos on Instagram and your explore page will be so adorable.

I've been open on this forum about struggling with limerence. My "win" for this week was maintaining no contact with the person I developed limerence for. I'm almost at six months of not looking at his social media. Healing from this has not been linear at all. But I'm making so much progress, and I am so proud of myself.

Another win, I renewed my subscription to a meditation app I love, and I signed up for a seminar about a topic that interests me a lot. I'm filling my life with great things and decentering men as much as possible. I focus more on non-romantic love, and it's benefiting me so much.

I realized how important it is for my body and mind to exercise. I am also grateful for support from my family and the privilege of having nice material things.

Regular internist appt tomorrow and I’ll tell the PA about my knee issues and walking the Camino and carrying too much which caused my rib head to dislocate. Thursday I have the orthopedic appointment. Those two original surgeries held for 28 years but if I have to get it repaired, no surprise.

My wins for the week is that I’ve decided to use my money to “doll myself up”. God willing I’m going to a wedding next weekend so instead of reusing my dress I decided to go to my favorite local boutique designer to get a new dress. The dress was great but I wanted it to be a bit more form fitting so I was able to get it dropped to have it tailored. Also I got my nails done too. Normally I do them myself but then I remembered that I’m back at home so I went to my fav nail tech to get pampered and catch up with her. All in all I’ve just been embracing looking beautiful and allowing myself to spend the money I want to achieve that just for me. Also I’ve been saying yes more to going out. Since I’ve decided that I don’t want to go back to OLD the time I would have used on the apps I’m using it go out to events ex. weddings, parties, events, classes etc. it’s a win-win as I get to build more friendships, meet more ppl but I also get to live life more and who knows going to places that I enjoy may allow me to meet my HVM. It’s more of a chance than staying at home and scrolling through their scrotes 😂