Sunday Reflections (Nov 27th)- Accountability Thread

Did not do an ounce more work than I should have, got to see my mom and dad and siblings, ate good food, and had four days off in a row. First Black Friday I've had in years where I didn't have to work. I stayed home and loved it.

I also have decided to start a reading journal for 2023. I'm an avid reader so it'll be fun to make a scrapbook-like journal for what books I read.

My wins for the week: -Got started on a project I've been avoiding out of fear (writing first draft of a novel) -Ran a major event at work that went smoothly -Did not react to family drama - in fact I didn't even reply -Did not reply to an intense hoovering attempt from my abusive ex after more than a year of no contact -Rejoined Peloton and did three my first workouts since getting the all clear from my cardiologist (this was a huge one for me, I have been terrified of getting my heart rate up and having a heart attack) -Continued making progress managing my anxiety / panic attacks with CBT program -Did small things to make myself feel cozy (took a nice bath, watched some YouTube videos) -Did a live online Qi Gong class -Participated in an online community meeting for a group I'm in -Cooked healthy food and did a chore I've been avoiding (window washing)

November started out good, then it went downhill the last couple weeks. I haven't felt much holiday spirit. I've let go of certain routines. But I'm intent on getting the train back on the track. The holidays are difficult for me because of a lot of loss I've experienced in my life. I'm being proactive to deal with the sadness I'm feeling. I ordered a little pink Christmas tree and some pink lights to get me in a better, more festive mood. I'm back to drinking more water and eating healthier. I found some great meditations that I'm loving. I'm fighting for my peace and joy.

I'm really glad to have found this space here on FDS. I posted my piece about limerence finally. I had it drafted for a while, but I finally felt ready to share it this week. It brings me comfort to know that I can use my own painful experience to help others. It's hard to put it into words. I know that the limerence started a journey that really has no end. It's the journey of becoming who I am meant to be. It's a journey of change and growth and getting to know myself. I think I'm on the right path. I think I found FDS for a reason. At least all this pain can be used in a positive way to help other women who might be going through the same thing as me. I'm grateful to be part of this community.

This week I spent a lot of time with friends and family. I’m trying to be more intentional about investing in these relationships over Wins - rejoined my old gym (as I’m now back at home) and went back to the Zumba class that I love. My fav instructor still teaches it and I was surprised to catch up with old members that I didn’t think were still going. It reminded me why I initially fell in love it and why I still love it now - was spontaneous and said yes to going out with my friends on Friday night as a great time out and about in the town. We had such great convos about womanhood, levelling up and enjoying great food and laughs - purchased a cross stitching kit! I’m excited to embark on this project Setbacks - I wasn’t able to pay for my registration as I’m still waiting to get the confirmations about my license. Im planning to f/up if I don’t hear anything by the mid week - didn’t reach out to mentor. My plan is to do it tomorrow.