To new experiences and healing my inner child

I’ve had so much fun this summer. For context I grew up in a household where my parents worked for 12+ hours, weekends, and important holidays like Christmas. As I grew up, I had to take on those responsibilities while doing well in school. Now, that I’m an adult that works, I have all this adult play money to spend. I’ve been using it to buy back the opportunities I missed as a child and early adolescence. I know that there are people who think I’m stupid for doing these things, but I think they’re jealous and resentful that I’m in a place where I can do things for myself that I would for my child/adolescent self. Anyways, some of the things I have done for myself is:

• Cook healthy homemade meals from scratch with organic ingredients. I will never go back to eating frozen dinners, pop tarts, and pizza bagels, because the expenses to buy my meals.

• I now have a garden that I can pick fruits off and eat straight from the ground, no more processed, canned items.

• I’m making friends and discovering new hobbies. Last year, I joined a tennis club and it was full of boys, which was not ideal for me. Lots of stupid shit happened. I felt myself pulling away from that hobby, but I still play with people I like.

• Sadly, yoga and Pilates did not stick. I learnt that I prefer high energy activities like spin, which is also a new activity. It’s so fun, my friends and I take wellness shots afterwards.

• I am in the process of taking rollerblading and bicycling lessons. I wished for a long time that one of my exes would teach me how ( I couldn’t really leave my house, as my parents were worried I’d be taken away from them), but all of them thought it was too much work. At one point, I even told myself that I’d marry the next guy who would teach me these things. However, I guess by doing these things for myself now, the only person I’m going to commit to is myself. I found a cute pink helmet and knee pads. I look so stupid, but safety come first.

• I also joined an all girls running club. We run once a week every Tuesday through a wild life reserve/garden. I’ve never run my entire life, and we’re doing 1 mile on my first day.

I want to take up rock climbing since I had so much fun on a school trip and I will never forget that experience. In addition, want to learn how to swim, but I’m scared, and it’s kind of embarrassing learning with all of these smaller kids. Also, is it possible to ask for a female instructor, because I don’t want men to touch me or be near me in my bathing suit. If anyone knows anything about some of these activities, some advice would be great!