Hi ladies! I really need some support. I feel really scared. My menstruation is behaving super sus lately. It lasts longer and is more intense than usual. I did some tests and will do ultrasound tomorrow. Then I hope that my obgyn will prescribe me something to stop the bleading.
Similar thing has happen to me before and I had to be hospitalized with some phisically and psychologically traumatizing experiences happening there.
But this time I'm being smarter because I went to the doctor sooner and if she prescribes me some pills I might not need to go to the hospital. I have to see her this Fryday or next Monday.
I'm still terrified of the possibility of hospitalisation. I'm scared that I might incounter the same misogynistic and sadistic female doctor as in my previous hospitalisation. I'm afraid that in the life threatening situation I might not be able to stand up for myself in order to be treated with more dignity and less phisical pain. As someone with history of sexual violence it's especially hard for me.
Here's how I'm trying to manage the current situation meanwile:
I've started preparing the bag for the hospital
I'm conserving my energy and trying to only do the most necessary things during the day. So that I'll have the energy to deal with the situation if it will not improve
I will have a therapy session this fryday
Any more suggestions or just kind and/or incouraging words will be appreciated 🥺