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Most guys I meet in the past don't treat me special (which already out themselves from the count) but want me to treat them like they're the special man in my life. I've had some men act like I'm prime real estate to be the special pick me that's going to be their baby momma, jerk me around with bad behavior and I'm supposed to see past it because I MUST be lonely. But why me? What do I have on my face or forehead that says "desperate for any man in my life"?
when I put boundaries now that's when I become the not fun person and they go away. cause then they aren't the special boy in my life that i will destroy myself over. That I'm not considering them as a husband or baby dad or anything else even though my experiences with them are not what I wanted. And it's scary because I know I shouldn't be afraid to get up there in age and I'm not- but the boldness some men have in thinking my age correlates to desperation in looking for the special man that will ruin my life is increasing. Like I said I don't mind my age what I do mind is having too many negative interactions with men cause I'm putting my boundaries down and obvious they don't like that.
They want to recreate the bond with their mommies