Feeling a little alone

I've been seeing a guy he has both LVM and HVM traits for 2 years and I'm at a fork in the road on ending it. There feels to be pressure on marriage starting to happen.

I grew up with a toxic pick me mom, she's started to introduce topics like settling down and using verbiage akin to me settling down. Like she's getting tired of seeing me home.. or as if having a spouse is my last hope in her eyes. (For various reasons: She does not know about my degree.)

Admittedly, I have lived a life of poverty and there are many things I have not been able to experience of things I WANT in my 31 years of life. Being in poverty has been always what everyone can get out of me.

I am childfree and about to graduate with my bachelors degree. What I want is to live alone and date casually or... don't! I want to choose. I have followed FDS as best as my resources allow me to. I have no problem chasing what I want-

What's grating on me is as I follow my career I will be effectively removing those 2 options you read above out of my way. I am starting to feel the effects of where this degree will take me, not everyone I care about will be able to come with me.