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This is after
A. Telling everyone I was just a slut who asked HIM for sex,
B. Mocking me after raping me, telling me to my face I'm "easy."
He is only now treating me like a person because everyone stopped asking to fuck me, and they're catching on that maybe it wasn't consensual. The actual rape happened years ago, and people who I thought would never talk to me again are trying to be friendly with me.
He has this super cute nerdy guy demeanor, that he uses, but I've seen the other side of him, that doesn't view women as people. We were somewhat friends before he did this, and I saw that he watches a lot of blowjob porn with the girls crying and shit like that. He once confided in me that he views consensual sex as kind of a bad thing, but I hadn't gotten the hint in time.
I know I can't hang out with him, but I just can't get over how he must have seen me.
I was in a similar situation with a past partner.
He had his hand under my shirt when we were cuddling and I told him to stop. He told me that I’m his bf and he could w/e he wanted. I told him that’s rape, and thankfully he stopped, but it got worse each time.
He came off as a shy nerdy gamer who never had any luck. He said that he was a good guy bc he had lots of girl friends. Behind closed doors, he said hurtful things, and kept letting me down.
I had to block and delete people from his circle including the girls. I don’t want to know anything about them. I’d be super nervous if any of them reached out.
I learnt that shy nerdy guys can be covert abusers who use this to their advantage. No one ever suspects these men as abusive since they’re so quiet. 🙄