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So, a month or so ago, I found out he's been masturbating to my senior photos.
This has split my family in half. Turns out, all he talked about was me to random family members, in like, a CRAZY obsessive way.
I think he wants to BE me.
I told him I never want to hear from him again and he acts like I'm being a "stuck up bitch." My SISTER told me that he won't stop talking about how I think I'm "better" than "them" as if me not wanting him to masturbate to me makes me bitchy. I don't think I'm better than my family. I just think he has permanently crossed a line. There has been no apology, but random family members have asked if I've "talked to him yet," like, fuck no, wtf? I want the dude to be dead.
My aunt found pictures of ME, covered in semen. She moved out and is on my side, but like, I NEVER fucking asked for this.
My aunt confided in me that she knew he was obsessed since she's been living with him for years, but she had no idea there was this whole fucking persona around hating/admiring me. Like, is this shit normal????
I wasn't a bad kid to my mom or him when I lived with them, and like, yeah, I wore makeup and stuff, but like, wanting to be pretty isn't like, bad.
He's a hardcore religious misogynist. I really can't understand that he's not PRETENDING to be this insane. Like, it's not a bit...
I am so sorry this happened to you. I know exactly how deeply traumatizing and violating this is because the same thing happened to me except it was my stepfather caught masturbating to my pictures. I understand just how bad this feels and how deep the hurt and violation, if your family had more 'snap' they would be on your side protecting you. I absolutely believe that you want him to die and know how hard it is sharing the same earth with someone who did this to you. It feels no different than if he raped or molested you. And like you can't protect yourself, because he can do this without you even being present, it's almost feels like being drugged and raped because this awful thing happened to you without your knowledge or consent, and without you even being aware it was going on. Probably for years. Finding out that you were being sexually abused all along, but secretly behind your back. A terrible betrayal. This is not your fault. There is*nothing* a young girl can do to "make" her grandfather want to have sex with her.