All of my childhood and teen crushes turned out to have some kind of absolute deal breaker.
Some of them became incels.
A few are rapists.
Almost all of them ended up calling at least a few of my female friends (the women I love in my life) "b*tches or w*ores" for doing nothing in particular.
Is there ANYTHING I can replace that bubbly feeling with?
Develop a crush on fictional characters, that works for me atleast 😭 Honestly I used to crush on so many boys when I was 8-13y, but once I started middle school all the kind and well-behaving ones grew up into absolute menaces, and since then I very rarely can develop a crush on someone because all the males are dogshit.
Bubbly feelings:
Work hard and achieve a goal that's important to you
Get that "ID'd a Scrote - Fast!" high
Hang out with HV women, do fun sh*t together
Travel solo (I'm traveling solo as we speak, and I love the feeling of freedom)
Take therapy seriously - and stop looking for a White Knight. You are your own (s)Hero
Treat yourself: to a nice dinner, new outfit, an orgasm, bouquet of flowers, art. Interrogate what you're dreaming a man will give you, and love yourself like that.
All these things (and more) will give you bubbly feelings, without risking your heart or health on a scrote.
Since your crushes all turn out like this, are you sure you still want to have crushes?