.png)
When someone casually mentions God, I think male.
My personal belief is that the universe, and MANY powerful spirits in it are feminine.
When I was a teen, well away from the brain washing, I stumbled upon BDSM sites mentioning "submission" and instead of being icked out, it felt like home, with how the Bible mentions submission.
I ended up marrying a very abusive man in a different Christian sect marriage, because even though I got out of the patriarchy, I couldn't get the patriarchy out of me.
Calling God male and demanding wives submit to husbands should be considered psychological abuse of female children.
It's so weird how Americans and Westerners criticize Middle-Eastern religions and then trap us between religion men and porn addicts (and oftentimes both.)
I'm going to tell my male children that the way their father is raising them is a lie.
Alot of male narcissists and female borderlines/histrionics are in the church communities too. I stay away from pickmes who "spiritualize" it up or are very religious because they're usually trying to hide their past pickmeisha traumas from when they had no discernment regarding their own boundaries with moids and their bodies. They literally had no morals but instead of just working through it and improving they instead put their focus on a fake virtuous holier than thou character so they can feel superior to others. You will see them preach about what moids value in women: purity virginity etc while secretly having tons of pickme baggage from the past. It's not pretty to look at. Church is filled with desperate hypocrites.
You're doing really well about the self worth. It seems very inflated