From awhile ago. - He knew I was raped before and that was why I had a boundary with not being able to give blowjobs. One night when I was very drunk and I think he thought I wouldn’t remember a word he said, he told me on the phone that if he had met me before I was raped and had that boundary, he would have “fucked my throat a lot” and “make me throw up on his dick”. He said “he would have told me this is how it’s supposed to feel”. 😖😡🤯🤢🤕🤧🤮😷🤒 I’m so sorry ladies for the repulsive and disturbing visual, but I knew then that he was porn sick and blocked him without explanation. I don’t understand why this became normalized or growing popular in porn, simulating raping a woman orally until she throws up does not sound intimate or a lovely experience at all. I never want to date any man who has a porn addiction again. 🫠
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Once a guy told me he only watches porn of black people because he sees them as “lesser” than everyone else. He was porn sick AND a fucking racist. Looking back I do think it says a lot about men’s perceived value of the humans they use for sexual consumption though. Many men can’t get off unless there is a sick power dynamic at play.
I'm in my forties and probably older than many of you ladies here, so my list will be as long as your arm. But most memorably:
🤡 A Fortune 100 C-suite executive told me to "suck it" in his penthouse living room, shortly before we were to leave for a night at the theater. This one blindsided me, as he'd been a perfect gentleman for several months beforehand. Never, ever, ever stop vetting!
🤡 A friend's boyfriend, drunk and probably also high on cocaine, told me that he wanted a threesome with my friend and me, and said that she didn't want it but he knew "all girls go both ways" and wanted me to convince her. When I scoffed at this, he got in my face and tried to physically intimidate me until I not-so-subtly showed him my concealed firearm.
🤡 "I will destroy that ass" on our third date when, for no reason whatsoever, the topic of anal sex came up. I was out of there before the second course arrived.
🤡 "You can't really say no. I mean, no is really yes" <--- scrote wisdom from a very well-known filmmaker at a glitzy NYC party full of the most horrible people imaginable; the male-dominated film industry entitlement is very real and extremely dangerous (see also: Polansky, Weinstein, et al.)
Men, especially men with money and power, are just as prone to degenerate pornsickness as their less illustrious brothers; the difference is that they also believe they are owed your body and that sex with you is their absolute right because they have cash and a name. I am here to tell you that LVM exist at every level of society, from the White House to the gutter, and there is a lot of overlap between them. Porn addiction always tells on itself, if you know how to listen for it.
Porn must be a dealbreaker for any relationship of any kind with a man.
So... I tried selling unworn children's shoes on my country's equivalent of Craigslist. They were very visibly shoes for a little girl with glitter and cartoon characters on them, a children's size and described as children's shoes.
You wouldn't believe the amount of disturbing messages by pedophiles I got. Some of the more harmless ones were that they would pay extra if I sent pictures of the little girl wearing them without socks or if they could talk to the girl on the phone first because they "wanted to know how she liked wearing them". It was so, so terrifying and disgusting. Of course I reported them, but I doubt anything happened to them. Never sell shoes on sites like this. Not even adult shoes. 99% of the people answering your ad will be perverts. It's absolutely disgusting.
It pretty much confirmed my suspicion that foot fetishists are among the lowest, most shameless and disgusting scum of the kink community. They have no shame, no boundaries, nothing.
Is it perhaps that their dicks are so broken, they need to keep escalating the depravity of what they “get off” too?
I had been dating a man for a little and when we had sex it started out beautifully and then halfway through he started calling me all of the degrading names, like in porn. "You dirty whore you like that? Yeah swallow that whole thing. Yeah this is my pussy you dumb bitch let me stretch it out" I had got off him and asked him to stop. Well I was a pickme and decided I wanted to finish and he started grabbing my head and tried steering my head while I blew him. He started saying the slurs again. At that point I stopped, completely turned off.
Another moment was when I was much much younger one of my first partners. I didn't think he needed to turn me on I was a cool girl who just wanted to please him (cringe). And he said "you're so dry" and then as he was thrusting me not even being romantic or even looking at me "your pussy feels weird it sort of feels tight but it hurts me. You feel weird" thankfully I dumped him afterwards because the sex was bad.
Another time a dude told me he had magic fingers and all his exes said he would finger them the best. Seemed cringey but again I was still a pickme then, and my curiosity and desperation wanted to know. He just kept sliding in and out, ramming. Worst thing of my life. I ended up asking him to stop and started touching myself getting myself off, he started touching himself watching. At that moment I thought he'd penetrate, but nope, he went to start doing the same jackhammering fingering again - and he looked so shocked and almost confused "it's so wet!!!!" And I was like yeah and he then touched me slowly, like someone looking at a science experiment, pulled out and looked at his wet fingers "it's so wet, and warm, and like sticky..." he almost seemed grossed out and like I was a science project. There was no love. He had this awful pencil dick, I was turned on from myself, so I said "so do you want to actually have sex?" And blankly he said okay and then rode me not even for 5 minutes. I could barely even feel his tiny pencil dick he just roboticllly thrusted then pulled out, took the condom off, sat on the floor and came on his own hands and just sat and investigated his own seed. I got dressed and left. Even as a pickme I was like I can't handle anymore robotic passionless bad sex.
Most males are so depraved, it’s horrifying. A pornsick ex knew I did not want to do anal. One day I had gone for a colon cleanse and when he asked me what I did today, I mentioned it briefly. He immediately said “oh so it’s all clean? I’m just gonna drive to you and f**k you in the ass real quick and leave” I said “excuse me??” And he tried to pretend he didn’t say anything 🙄 I also suspect that he had a bestiality fetish he repeatedly tried to project onto me, trying to say I liked “big horse c**ks”. This sad excuse for a male had a whole toolbox full of screws loose in his rotted brain.
I’ve said this before, but why do they want their most sensitive part near teeth?
and I think more women need to bite down and claim it was a gag reflex.
I use to watch porn when I was younger and I was seeing an older man… and so one of the things he asked me was what if he out his penis between my breasts… I knew that was from porn because I had seen it done… but i said no to it… even then I knew it was weird and had no benefit for me…
Good on you for blocking him immediately.
This is messed up. What does it achieve to ask this? Why are you asking this? To trigger people and create a sense of despair? This is no different to the male depravity rabbit hole the FDS sub went down. This is extremely unproductive behaviour and it’s bizarre. If experiences like this are sitting with you, please see a therapist to unpack and work through them. It’s heavy content and a lot to deal with, I understand. This website is not the place to trauma dump nor encourage trauma dumping. The original FDS sub had rules against posts like this. Subject matters like this are not healthy to constantly ruminate over. If you want to learn to navigate toxic male behaviours, read: Why Does He Do That? By Lundy Bancroft. I urge you to focus on healthy topics like your levelling up journey, healing process, developing boundaries, and dating strategy.
I don't know if this counts but before my FDS days I asked a guy for help with losing weight in a BDSM context (meaning he would be able to punish me if I didn't obey and so on) since I had had eating disorders for 10 years, I found myself overweight and I was desperate for a solution, and I thought it would help our friendship for reasons too long to explain here. He knew I suffered from eating disorders and we had had a "successful" BDSM relationship in the past (meaning that I obeyed without receiving any pleasure from it and in exchange he gave me his friendship... I was very, very alone), for context. He asked me to send some pics to start and I did (mind you, he had seen pictures of me at that weight already, it's just that they were taken from flattering angles and I sucked in my stomach. This time instead I didn't use flattering angles and I didn't suck my stomach in). He replied, and I quote: "Im sorry but I can't do this, you're just too disgusting. I thought I could look past it but I can't so I apologise but I can't help you with a diet plan". I just said "ouch, okay..." and started crying.
That's not porn sickness, that's sociopathy.
He had a sister he met as an adult and he told me he thought she was really hot and that he’d get hard every time he hugged her.