Friendships in my 30’s

I'm re-evaluating some of the friendships I've had through out the years. Some longer than others.

I recently decided to go no contact with one group after a traumatic event with them. It left me in shambles and I had to pick myself up on my own. Their was between a boy and girl. The boy lead me on and the girl kept budding into my romantic life. You might think that the girl is trying to help but she has a nasty habit of putting her nose into other people's business. This is her third time "intervening". With the boy, there was something there, but I got hasty because of the other girl and asked a question that caught him off guard. Anyways, they want hangout with me to set record straight. Honestly, it was traumatic and an embarrassing situation that I don't want to be in again. There's a third friend, who's going out of her way to set us up together. Being with them reminds about the drama that I used to have in Highschool. It brought me back to a very bad place. Other people tell me that I should see them to see what they want, but I don't want to go through that treatment. Am I right to just keep rejecting their invites? I truly believe that everything does not have to be in black and white, and a person's actions shows their true colours. They were both in the wrong.

This event lead me to meeting other people and groups. Let me tell you, it's wild. I've met up with girls who were pick-mes and all they'd do is meet up and give backhanded compliments to eachother because they're jealous of eachother. Another instance was when this girl had a ONS and did not use protection. Throughout the whole brunch, she was worried about pregnancy, but refused to get tested and she was freaking out and causing a scene. The waiters were giving us looks. That was the last time I saw them as they deemed me unworthy of their ways. It's okay the feeling is mutual.

As for me, I've only been able retain certain people in my life and develop friendships on an individual basis.

Lately, I've been feeling as if there is something wrong with me, because I notice a pattern within myself where I tend to leave big circles and cannot maintain friendships with large groups. It's always been like that since birth.